Sunday, September 14, 2008

Part 2

I still find it hard to overcome the grief for Jin. Still thinking of her especially at bed time; how I would put her on my bed and put on her pampers before she goes to sleep. I would talk to her expressing our love for her and her love for us. She would play for a while and wait for my husband to join us in bed before I put her down on my side of the bed. I have to let her wear pampers because during her last year with us, she was not able to go to the toilet to poo and wee especially between bedtime and early morning when she wakes. Number of times she just wee on the pamper and it saves me alot of time cleaning her and she feels comfort as well. She does not wear it during the day.

It's almost 6 months now but we still miss her and I've got her photo infront of the computer. Still heartache for her but then we had adopted a little dog from SPCA in April, 2 months after Jin's death. He's a handsome young boy of 3 years. I will be writing a new blog for him but not able to so soon because am still thinking about Jin. Even now while writing, it took me sometime before deciding to update this site. I hope I will come out of grief for Jin soon. Love our girl, Jin Jin.

Friday, April 4, 2008

The Beginning = Part 1

This was what she looked like when she came to our home on 22/11/04. A vagrant look! Indeed, she was, abandoned without food for a long time. Who would want to do this to a little dog who was so good a nature. Jin did not show any signs of pain...., not even a smallest sound to show her discomfort during her last few hours especially when I was holding her in my arms the night before. Jin was a brave girl! She did not cry at all.

Jin went to the groomer the following day to have a good scrub. Her ears were so dirty, all black wax. We believed she was not taken care of for a long long time by her owner before finally being abandoned.

A pitiful picture to remain us of Jin who had gone through alot of suffering before coming to our home. Skin and bones. The night I took her in, I brought her to the vet and was told to fatten her up before deciding what to do next. Saw her right hind leg? Jin cannot stand straight due to this leg problem which the vet cannot diagnosed. Only possibility was that she was pinned by her mother when she was a baby and her leg was in some way deformed. No conclusive answer.

Jin had left us one month plus. Am still thinking of her especially when I come home and in the night when I go to bed. But I have good news to those of you who had followed her story. Whenever I thought of Jin, my version is a very clear picture of a large green field and Jin was either running or sitting down. At times I would see the figure of Buddha walking and Jin besides. This could be so because we were telling Jin " to go to the Land of the Buddhas and be happy to go walk walk everyday" during her last day with us. Walk-walk was Jin's favorite word which means she would be going out of the house for her daily walk or to go travelling in daddy's car, maybe to grandparents home.

Friday, February 22, 2008


Our dear girl, Jin Jin passed away peacefully on 22/02/08 around 10.30am.

Jin was not feeling well before the Chinese New Year and had seen the vet for medicination for her allergy. After the second consultation for her problems, she started to reject all her favourite food including roast pork. Even her usual titbits and greenie did not entice her to eat. Not even water and we had to use a syringe to feed her glucose water for at least she had some energy.

On 21/2/08, we decided to take her out for a car ride since I need to visit the temple in SengKang. While in the car, Jin started to show abnormal signs. She closed her eyes and not long she was totally limp and she lie sideway like sleeping. We talked to her and at the temple, I pour a small cup of holy water for her to drink and she seems very thirsty. Went home and then we realized she was not in good condition. She lies totally on her side and grasping for breath.

Through the afternoon/night, her grasping became stronger and she had diarrhoea a few times and it showed she had internal bleeding. We knew it's time for her to go and on 22/2 morning, we sent her to the vet. Jin was diagnosed to have a stroke and her internal organs are slowly malfunctioning. Option was to put her in coma so medication may help her to feel better but only 5-10% chances she survives and she may have another stroke during this period and die. Last resort was to have her last jab in life to relief all her sufferings. We chose to let her go peacefully and at around 10.30am we saw her through her last breathe of life. Amithaba